KML - I have to admit I've wondered that at times myself, mainly when I have been trying to figure out SO badly why he doesn't want to work on 'us'. I've also had a few friends suggest that to me - not b/c they suspected he is, but b/c they can't figure out why he doesn't want me (but my friends love me to death, and of course think he's stupid for risking losing everything). IDK - obviously nobody can know someone 100%, but deep down, I don't really think that he is. If it were true, then he's a darn good actor. And the way he looks at me, the way its always him initiating intimacy, how quickly I can turn him on etc, well it just doesn't make sense. But then again, nothing about this makes sense. I think a OW would make more sense. Don't get me wrong, I am not naive enough to believe 100% that there is no OW, there just has been no reason not to believe him up until this point. My whole situation is just so baffling. The only thing I keep going back to is that he is struggling with depression, and he can't sort out whether our relationship is the cause of his depression or something out. He's always maintained that he's 'just not happy, but doesn't know why'. He admits he's no happier without us. IDK. All I can do is be supportive, and just make sure I do everything in my power to ensure that my kids don't suffer - and that they have a happy healthy relationship with both of their parents, and always feel loved no matter what. Ughh I haven't thought about the gay thing in a long time, now I am going to be analyzing everything all over again all night (not your fault KML!). Thanks for the feedback...
