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[gunny]

Good morning all,
W left yesterday for ohio to bring first load of stuff out to her sisters. This was my first full day by myself, got up around 6, walked the dog, fed him, ate breakfast, and went down to the local canal for a 5 mile run. Today was a glorious day weather wise, about 70, with not a cloud in the sky. Finished up the run and made a cup of coffee in my Airstream 19 travel van and sat by the canal and read some posts from this site that I had run off yesterday for just this purpose.

It really does help me to read the timelines of alot of these posts. Many of the stories are very similar to mine, sometimes different ages, but sometimes pretty close. Of course, I love to see it when sitchs work out in the end, and of course, I am saddened when they don't, even though the person on the receiving end often ends up making themselves a better person.

It is really helpful to read some of the nuggets of wisdom interspersed throughout the site, some of you people are darn good writers.

I am hoping with all of my heart that my sitch eventually works out also, although I am doing my darndest to prepare myself if it doesnt. As I write, I am at the local library checking out books, tonight when I get home I will have a quick dinner, beer, and then its off to my Friday night Divorce Support group, which runs from 730-930. Then its home and bedtime. Last night I slept pretty well, am still trying to get the right combo of herbal substances to keep me asleep for at least 7 hours. Tried the Stop Sign routine to halt any unpleasant thoughts that come crowding into my head at zero dark thirty in the morning, it was moderately successful, but I understand it does become more effective with practice.

Tomorrow is walking down at the canal, shopping, and maybe a movie.
Sunday I will be meeting my cousin with our campers down at the local lake for some coffee and conversation. W went to his house for dinner this past tuesday, he wants to fill me in on what she had to say.

Bottom line, I am trying to stay busy and keeping my days full. I would not wish this experience on my worst enemy, but I know someday when it is over I will be a stronger person.

Thanks again for all the support that has come my way, I intend to PAY IT FORWARD!