Wife no longer in love with me - Part 4

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Just saw on facebook that the girl my W lives with is having a massive 30th birthday next weekend......I can only imagine what will go on there. She likes to party and dabble in party drugs so no doubt my W will cut loose as well and there will be guys everywhere........I can't detach when I think about things like that and what she will get up to.

I feel so useless and have no control over anything that happens in my M now. I guess I need to accept that my life as I knew it will never return......my W and I will probably never reconcile. She is single and free and is basically trying to relive her youth and college days.