As I stated in a previous post the W aske dme to move out 2 Sep 11. After a month of begging her to change her mind and to try and see if we can make it work I have decided this week to work on no contact and to start working on myself.
Well that is easier said than done I want to call/text/email her every second. I keep thinking that if I can just say the right thing she will snap out of this MLC thing she is going through
She said to me "I love you and care for you but I am not in love with you". WTH is that crap. I bought DR yesterday and started reading that and it was like I was reading about me. I want this marraige to work so bad.
What can I do to stop getting pissed off when she goes out buying all new clothes for the club and such. Also how can I stop getting mad when she says that this is all my fault that I faded away years ago.
In her defense I am in the Army and I have been through a few deployments and I have also been diagnosed with PTSD. I get it i am trying to work on that but I felt that the least she could do is understand that seeing that she has a degree in that sort of stuff
She is also questioning every aspect of her life she is questioning her carrer and loooking for a new one. She feels bad for having so much resentment for having a child. She has now signed up for the PTA which is far from her normal personality.
Part of me thinks that there is nothing to save but I must try at all cost. I feel that she is not filling for D just to keep the free medical going and to keep the Military housing allowance cooming in. She has a medical issue that befor eall of this we were discussing her getting taken care of. Now with all of this I feel at times that she is just waiting for that to go through before she files.
I am still going to GAL as it states in DR "it takes one to tango" but it is hard because I have to see her every sayt at soccer and sun at church and mon when I take my son to soccer practice and to cub scouts. It seems like just as I get to a point where I can be ok alone there she is acting all crabby and just sets me back to anxiety.
