CTH, going over your past and why you married who you married is a nice exercise periodically but keep in mind that just as the WAS re-writes history, so do we. You will never be able to go over that history in an objective manner, never! Hey, you loved her, you married her and life did what it sometimes does. End of story! The person we marry is never the same person who left us, betrayed us etc. They change, just as we all do. We all try to figure it out so we won't make the same mistakes again but, on the whole, it's pretty much a limited value exercise. You did what you did because that's what you needed at the time. Now, you are someone different. Figure out who you are and what you need now...and beauty is nice but keep in mind that it is often a curse too as it can blind us from seeing things of greater importance, good and bad, in the other person. Just keep that in mind while you search.
