Everwhere is walking distance if you have the time

[ClingingToHope]

Yes. My brain is swirling when it comes to that. I've had six serious relationships in my life. All were beautiful. All were very smart except for XW. Looking back, it's not like I said to myself, "this one, she's the keeper. She's everything I want."

It really was more of a we were going out, she's beautiful which fed my vanity, I'm in my mid-20s and felt it was time, she's nice, and I thought I could make the issues work.

Having the girls around so much this week is a struggle because XW comes up constantly. Either through something they are doing, some other memory or the phone rings and she's calling to talk to them.

I sent OKC a message today through Facebook about lunch next week, she responded within minutes, and we're going to try to set something up. If that works well, I think I'll actually CALL her to set up a real date. The modern progression.

Funny thing on the Match subscription, now that it's run out all of the people I clicked to not see again are back. So I went through my mutual matches and voila, XW is a 98 percent match. That being said, when you look at reverse match, she's not in my top 15 pages, so according to Match, she's not looking for someone like me. That makes sense.

She's changed photos. The one she picked looked better. By clicking on it, of course she'll see that I've looked at her profile. Oh well.

Last thing about having girls over so much. They are always coming up with reasons to go to the house. Over there tonight and notice a stack of bills. Yes. I went through them. She's falling into a big hole. That isn't surprising. She buried me in debt before we broke up. Letter next to the bills -- worksheet on Chapter 13 bankruptcy.

Unfortunately, I felt a sense of peace after reading it. Grass isn't greener. I then felt bad for feeling good.

I really hate to be over there.