Thank you for your encouragement. It's funny that you mentioned "little 180s". I almost never wear jewelry (aside from a few earrings and before all this, my wedding set. You must understand, I am very much a jeans, flip flops, and tank tops kinda gal. Very simple in how I dress. I dunno, I guess I wanted to add a little extra something without compromising who I am, so last week, I started putting on a necklace with whatever else I was wearing. I didn't expect him to take notice, but he did. He asked me where I got it. Funny thing is that I've had it for ages (in fact, I bought it during one of his deployments - the clinking sound it makes reminded/reminds me of his dog tags). But yeah, definitely wasn't expecting him to notice something so simple.
It really is funny how an attitude (particularly a negative one) is so easily reciprocated. I had glanced at that book on Amazon. I'm headed to the library later this week, so I'll see if they have it. Thanks for the recommendation.
Well, tonight went pretty well, I think. I must say, I looked darned good. I was cool and calm. Friendly, but not overly so. I was quick to smile. Easy to talk to. I'm proud of myself. As I was leaving, I thanked him for watching the kids, kissed the boys goodbye, and walked towards the door. I glanced back, with a smile, and said, "See you in a bit." He didn't say anything and I laughed and said I was talking to him. He chuckled and said for me to drive carefully. Was that too much? Eeek... now, I'm second guessing myself.
DivorceCare went okay I guess. The program is all about healing. I felt really bad for the people there because I feel like because of this site and DR, I am a little bit ahead of them. It is nice that I am with other people who are going through a similar situation though.
I thought I would only be gone for an hour and a half or so, but ended up being gone for almost two and half hours. I felt bad because he had mentioned being tired (he wants to put off doing our Parenting Plan until Friday evening). When I came in, I apologized to him, as I had assumed the class would be an hour instead of an hour and a half. He didn't seem to mind. S1 was passed out on his chest and S4 was winding down too. He asked me if there were any cute guys there. I giggled and said yeah (there so weren't lol).
We worked well together, to get S1 into a fresh diaper and jammies, without jostling him too much. I didn't expect him to even help me there. Why is it that he is all of a sudden able (and willing) to step up to the plate to help me out even when I don't need it? Why couldn't he do that before??? He made it a point to let me know that he even cleaned up the kitchen after the boys were done eating. Before he left me, I had to practically beg him to lend a hand. I just don't get it. Regardless, I thanked him again for staying with the boys, thanked him for helping with S1, and thanked him for cleaning the kitchen. Yes, his LL is Words of Affirmation, so I am trying to let him know that he is appreciated.
After he left tonight, S4 asked me what man I love. Huh? I asked him if Dad asked him to ask me that and he said no. I was honest and told him that I love Daddy. Such a strange question. I am with him every single day and in the over a month now, he has never asked me something like that. I know he said no, but I still wonder if H put him up to it. Hmmm.
A couple of things I did intentionally (that H did not mention having noticed): On a note pad, I had a phone number written down - no name with it. It's simply a person on craigslist, who is selling some painting/art supplies (it's something I want to get back into at some point in the near future). I know he saw it, as he was looking at the grocery list under it. I also left my Cosmo opened to the sex section lol (too much??). The magazine was moved from where I left it, but again, he said nothing. I guess I am just trying to leave a little bit of a mystery trail. Anyone have any thoughts on intentionally doing things like this? Is it too much of a "game"?
