Not quite in midseason form...yet

[MadeToSucceed]

I woke up with a considerable amount of anxiety this morning. Not really sure why. I found myself reflecting on the past couple of days before bed last night. Even when I was at the bar on Monday night I couldn't help but think "W would love this."

Last night I had class and then I went to a local taco shop. It was National Taco Day and so they had $1 tacos. Couldn't help but think "W would love this." I even found myself watching a couple of TV shows and there were a couple love scenes in them and it made me reflect on the physical aspect of our R as well. Crazy to imagine but this time next week it'll be 7 months since I last had sex with my W. Never quite imagined that.

I think I need to be cautious of what I do late at night so that I can go to bed with a more "positive" outlook and thus, wake up with a better one.

I also found out that my brother is struggling again in college. I want to help him so bad but he won't really let anyone. I'd LOVE for him to move in with me and go to school here that way I could help him. He's a smart kid but he's lost in others expectations for him and he gets it ingrained in his mind that he can't do something.

I'm about to head to noon Bible Study now and I'm hoping that will help some of my feelings subside. I don't know what it is. I can't quite put my finger on it. Ever since I woke up my anxiety has just been increased. Like something just isn't "right" but I don't really know what "it" is specifically.