feeling a bit down today, which I know is a normal thing in our sitchs. I hate the mornings, waking up in a bed by myself, with w sleeping in the other room.
Last night my brother came over to sleep on the couch. He has been chronically depressed for at least 5 years and unemployed for the last two. He is having a sitch at home with his girlfriend(who is a doll and wants to marry him but will not until he deals with his issues). He may be staying over a few nights or not, hastnt decided. Didnt want to bring his depressed way of thinking into my home, but w said we should let him stay. She is leaving tomorrow morning to take some things out to Ohio so that when she leaves for good on the 28th her load will be lighter.
It is really sad to watch the pile of stuff she is taking with her grow each day. Pieces of our life contained in boxes. I know it is best to let her go, she must have her space, but it is very hard. Many of you out there have been in similar circumstances, so I know you know how I feel. I want to say to her in the worst way that although she is exited about moving to stay with her sister, and is looking forward to a new life, the chances are that after a period of time she will find that it wasnt me, or our marriage that made her unhappy, but that the unhappiness comes from deep within her, and it is only a matter of time before her unresolved issues rear their ugly heads and make themselves felt. But, of course I won't because it would serve no useful purpose, except to act as a temporary salve to my raw emotions.
Oh well, just venting, thanks for listening all.
m 54 XW 48 m 12 t 14 bomb 6-11 s 10-11 wife moved to other state 10-21-11 d 9-12
O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!
