Val, the very last thing I wanted to do was cause you more pain. I sincerely apologize.
I repeat that to myself when I begin to accept all of the responsibility for the demise of the relationship STBX and I had. It reminds me I am worth more love than she is able to give now. It reminds me she has problems she needs to grow from also. That she has responsibilities for this sitch too.
Yes, I wept and still do. I will not allow myself to become paralyzed. I very nearly did. It will not happen.
Post when you’re ready, we will be here. ((()))
Aww JS. I'm sorry. I wasn't implying you caused me pain.. just that it opened the flood gates. I'm a cryer by nature. Sometimes not all cries are good, but last night was a good one.
So thank you so much for posting it and everything you post to me. You have been such an important part of my personal growth. I'm glad we are on this journey together.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
