Wife no longer in love with me - Part 4

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I know, I deserve the 2x4 on that! I am contradicting myself.
Yes its hard having her things in the house, but it is also me hanging on to our life together (ie not detaching).

I think I will wait until I get back from my holiday to do this and bide some time to try and compose myself.

And I don't want to go back....I have told her that and told her who would want to go back to how our M was over the last year, look at how unhappy I was and a downer on things etc, I wouldn't want to go back to that either. Rather I want us to go back to what we once had and create a new R together. Again, she didn't buy that and is set in her decision to D.

NTX, I have thought about sending her her stuff, but my interactions are so limited so I probably need to maximise them (once I work out how to cope). I don't know if anyone else has experience with a WAW who just doesn't ever want contact or to see the H again???? As we don't have kids, she feels there is no reason for us to see each other or talk anymore.....I guess with the way she is acting, it makes me feel so much worse and as if I was the worst H and deserve to be treated like that. I may as well had an affair the way she thinks of me.