PLEASE!!! Need help quick! Calling all vets!

[AJM]

Um, it's easier because the WAS is no longer around to be dealt with when they die. They are no longer able to stick their finger in my eye.. The rest of it? Who gives a flying...f*** what others think? They can only relate to me based on their own experiences. I don't worry about their experiences. They are different and they haven't walked in my shoes.

Never did care what others thought for the most part. Oddly, I did immediately after the "awakening" (bomb was what she dropped; I began to awaken...I see that now).

But there is also the part where you have a long 20+ year habit. That doesn't go away fast. It takes time and more importantly effort.

You loved her. You were addicted to her. She's a nut. You aren't far behind that. This wasn't what you wanted.

But I notice you are starting to re-evaluate some things. You and I are pretty similar Tad in that respect Tad. Others are saying things to you about your past, or they ask questions that when you answer you listen to the words as they come from your mouth and you realize something wasn't right for longer than you admitted....

Be careful to not re-remember, but if you look at the facts what do you see? That's important for later my friend.

When you let yourself think of this situation, ask yourself to see the truth of the situation. To see the positives in your own life. To see things as others might see them if they didn't know you (not judgementally; objectively).

Maybe Tad. Just maybe this is the best thing to happen to you even if you cannot see that right now. Maybe not. But you'll have to see this from a positive light to know. To get there, you'll have to go back to seeing the positive things in your life to the exclusion of all else for a little while until you are able to see things as they are without judgement. Without only seeing what you want to see.

AJ