I am with Drew here.
What a great post 25yearsmlc.

Tad I want to validate you on your feeling that in a way the abandonment and rejection of our M is worse than a death.

A death is final, there is closure. There is no negotiation with the other.
There is no judgement upon you the survivor (usually) as a good or bad person.
There is sympathy and support for widowers and widows.
You MUST move forward, you don't have a choice to "stand" or not.

In both cases you must get your financial house in order and dispose of the other's things.
In both cases a legal process must be followed.

I get what you're saying Tad. ((Hugs))

In the meantime 25yearsmlc is right. You have 11 days to DB your a$$ off and it's not over until YOU say it's over.
I think your WAS is going to have a few surprises waiting at the end of the D.

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.