I hope you realize that I'm truly trying to help you. Yeah, I might be a little tough and blunt, but I believe telling someone the answers is nowhere near as beneficial as when someone figures out them out on their own.
That's why I try to get you to think about things for yourself in your situation. For instance, I feel a lot of your problem is right here:
Originally Posted By: cam
How can I show her I'm changing(?)
Why might I think that?
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.