Why do you define yourself and your happiness in terms of someone else?
I think because I was unhappy last year and now that I realize what I've lost I understand that I shouldn't have been unhappy last year - as this now is real unhappiness. Not having her in my life has made me reevaluate everything I do, who I am and who I became. And I see I wasn't someone I wanted to be, and I am trying to work myself back to being the person she fell in love with. But having no contact and dealing with someone like her (who blocks things out and runs away), I feel like she will never give me a chance. How can I show her I'm changing when she would never initiate contact, and I am trying not too.
My happiness has been defined by her of late because with her out of my life I feel so empty and lost. I miss her so much and all the fun we used to have together and now I feel like I have nothing. I miss my best and closest friend. I just can't seem to move on or move forward.
M 35 W 31 Separated 2/2011 but still together Ended it 4/2011 Together 8 yrs Married 3.5 yrs Lawyers involved 6/2011
