"I am sitting here waiting for her to return when it's not going to likely happen."
Again. If you "know" it's not going to happen, what are you waiting for? Stop predicting what you don't know. You end up creating a self-fulfilling prophecy.
"I just don't get what she wants."
She doesn't know either. It's why it's called a rollercoaster. You can either keep riding it with her or you can hop off and let her run it herself.
"she wants this and the ball is in her court, yet she expects me to do the work."
She didn't "expect" it. She just asked. She never demanded you do it. In fact, you were the one who told her all that additional info.
Start clearing your head.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
