When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Well, talk about a wake up call to stop being afraid of what expressing myself could bring. Time to just put it out there and see what happens.

The catalyst to this?

One of my oldest cousins lost his wife of 30+ years to ovarian cancer 8 years ago. He then married a woman who had been a close friend of the family for years and they have been married over 6 years. She is a sweetheart and the whole family loves her dearly.

They were visiting her grown children who live in Kentucky (they live in California). This morning, my cousin got up and found his wife face down on the bathroom floor. She had apparently had a massive heart attack in the middle of the night and died.

I'm heartbroken for him. The thought of losing a spouse to death, twice, is overwhelming.

It really causes me to examine my reasons for not being completely transparent with my feelings. What is the worst that could happen? He could choose to walk away. Gee, already done that once (well really 3 times if you could all the false starts of returning home) and it ended up not killing me like I thought it would.

Life is just too short and love is far too precious to waste.