After the conversation yesterday, I did feel low, and I thought about just going out and having a few drinks, this is the first time in 2 months I have thought like that, but then I thought, why??, the problems will only still be with me tomorrow, except I'll have a hangover!!!
You are bang on the money, although we are sober now, the mess is still there!!
When we spoke yesterday about what happened etc, she just keeps saying "because your an alcoholic", she must have said it 10 times, I said I knew I was but I was trying to get over it.
And you and MrB are right, it will take a lot longer than 2 months to prove the changes are real, but the hurt is still there for both of us
I do believe that over time, if I can prove I can beat this addiction, things will change for both of us, but its the now that still hurts.
I told her yesterday that I see my life like an advert for HD TV, it looked good before, but when you see it in HD,(sober), it looks so much different, a lot clearer, and you appreciate things a lot more.
I appreciate her, and all she did, I was never really any help with the house, kids, etc, it was all work and drink. I appreciate my kids, I took them and her for granted, and until you lose them, you have no idea what you have, at least I didn't.
I told her all that yesterday, she knows how I feel, and it will take a long time to heal the wounds I caused.
Although we are sober, the mess is still there!!
Thats my new motto I think.
Thanks guys
And yes I do know the answer to the dating thing!!
Actually my wife asked yesterday was I dating? I said I had meet a lady a few times for a drink, but told her I felt so uncomfortable, the few times I saw her, all I thought about was being with my wife, so I explained to the girl, that she was great, but I was sorry, I wasn't ready for it at this time.
My wife just said that it was nice I didn't mess her around, and that she felt sorry for me feeling that way still!!
