Thank you for your response KML - you're last paragraph hit right home. Is that what this is all about? I have managed to come so far and dread going back to that place where we all start. I find that looking forward to seeing him is underpinned with a kind of knot in my stomach just waiting for him to drop another bomb type revelation.
I like your suggestion of a six month wait-and-watch. That gives me a time frame that perhaps takes the pressure off me wrestling with needing to know things now.
I also need to take your advice and not jump to conclusions; I need to be honest with myself. Everything he is suggesting is child-focussed - which is great, but its not about him and me.
You asked if he has given any indication regarding his sudden change of behaviour, and the answer is no. A few times he has been reflective by raising a little of his behaviour over the last two years - and I'm guessing this was to gauge my response - and I have simply listened and remained non judgmental.
Going back over my previous thread that Cadet put up, I am reminded about the good work I put in at the beginning and how it was all thwarted 'cos then he disappeared. But I now see this as a good thing .. it gave me time to work on me and him time to do what he needed to do. But who would know if what he needed to do included working on himself?
