I can't seem to recognize my fear. I believe it's not so much the fear of loosing my W as it is the fear of the pain that my kids are going to suffer. The fear of not seeing the kids daily. I think those are my main fears.
I've given up trying to understand the thought process thats involved with throwing away 13 yrs together without even trying to work on it as a couple. Don't understand it, never will. I was talking to my brother on the phone today and told him that I wasn't even sure I'd wanna try and work it out if she were to change her mind tomorrow. Too much pain, lying, disrespecting, mistrust.
Maybe I'm just blowing smoke at myself, who know?
Me:38 W:35 T:13 M:10 (3/15/01) SD:12 D:9 S:4 Need time to think: 7/19/11 D Bomb Dropped: 8/26/11 W serves me D papers: 9/6/11 Officially served 9/30/11
