I'm so sad and don't know what to do anymore

[gunny]

hi ayngl,
Sorry for what you are going through. I am dreading the day when my w leaves, it will be oct 28th. I feel like every day that passes is one day closer to execution day. Curiously though, over the last 3 or 4 days I feel a little bit stronger, w and I went to a mediator the other day, because we have no kids, no debt and only assets, which we have agreed to divide 50/50, he suggested we(meaning me) file on our own, since w will no longer be a resident of NJ when she moves. W agreed, so the onus of filing now rests with me, and right now i plan on moving very slowly on this front.

I work in the Veterans community, many of whom are members of the greatest generation and korea. Many of these guys have been married 50 and 60 years. When I tell them my situation, many times they are at a loss to understand why s wants d, but they also almost to a t say that is best to let s leave, let her get some time to experience life alone, find that grass is never as green on the other side as we think. These guys have been around, and hearing them talk like this really helps me. She may or may not come back, but i have no power to influence either way. I am putting my faith in god to help.

Haven't read your whole sitch, but have you considered joing a local divorce/sep support group? I have joined 2 and have met some real supportive people. Keep me posted and hang in there, I know it gets better, you will do allright!!

gunny