So wish I could self initiate a massive heart attack!!
Shame on you for saying such a selfish thing as that!! If I believed you really meant that....I would seriously get on your case!
You asked me earlier how could you stop letting fear be in control. I believe we have to operate out of our personal belief system.....and not the emotion of fear. Fear is a feeling and sometimes we just have to experience that feeling and go on and "do" the right thing anyway. We may not always be able to stop feeling afraid, but we don't have to allow the fear to paralyze our actions.
Bear with me, please, while I share something with you. I remember my dad talking about WWII and the Normandy invasion. He said most of them were just young boys and they were so scared that they were throwing up before they got to the beach. But.....they knew what they had to do...and so they did it, afraid. When I saw the movie Saving Private Ryan...and how the enemy was just mowing the guys down before they even set foot on land....I remembered my dad talking about the day the ocean turned to blood. NOW THAT WAS FEAR!
Sometimes we have to stop and think about those couples who are told their baby girl has cancer, or that their son won't walk again. In other words, there is always somebody who has problems bigger than ours. It's not usually what we want to do when we're already depressed and facing a possible divorce, but the point is to think past our own pain and then maybe we can see the bigger picture more clearly.
I truly hope you can think past your pain, and do what works in your MR(and what is right)and if you must...then do it even though you are afraid. You may not stop experiencing fear all together, but that's how you stop allowing it to control your life.
(hugs)
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
