Yes I think you are definitely angry and hurt. Now are you too hurt to be logical.. I don't know. What do you think? You know yourself better than I?
My wife dropped the d-bomb in July and by August she wanted to start mediating. For some reason.. it kept getting pushed. An email didn't go through, our mediator wasn't available, I got on a job (I work 12-14 hrs a day in my field).
I truly believe God was protecting me because I wasn't ready. I was too angry, too hurt, too weak to handle it (IMO) Now all of our schedules opened up and we are going to meet next week.
I'm trying to have faith that now is the time even though I still don't feel 100% ready. Am I still afraid my emotions are going to get in the way?? D@mn skippy.. I am. But I am going into with the mindset that I will listen, be fair to myself and my w. That's the woman I want to be in all of this.
Will I make mistakes during this D.. I'm sure of it. I'm a human being who has been greatly hurt, rejected. I have feelings!!
I don't expect perfection from myself.. but I try to keep reminding myself of the woman I am becoming. It helps me screw up less..
So What mindset do you have going into this process? How can you make it through this being the woman only a fool would leave?
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
