She already knows that you've owned up to things and are hurting. She doesn't want to hear it over and over and over again. You keep reminding her of the bad things from the past.
If she's anything like my stbx, she is exhausted from hearing about the failures in the relationship. Frankly, over the summer, I became tired of talking about them too.
I've been reading a boo this week called "The Passion Trap". It talks about the "pursuer-distancer" dynamic in some relationships. I am only in chapter three but it so far it accurately describes the imbalance I sense in your relationship and mine.
Just hang in there and try to keep busy. Invite everyone you know to do things after work and on the weekends. Focus on cam and try to have some fun.
Me: 43 W: 37 Together: 18 M: 15 D: 8 yrs old ILYBNILWY: March 2011 She Filed for D: August 2011 She moved out: Sept 1, 2011 Reconciled: May 2012 Divorce Case dropped: July 2012