Pretty sure this is a MLC or Identity Crisis

[tested metal]

The last couple days I have had NC with W and it felt great. I had to see her this morning though to drop off D and the crappy feelings came back yet again. I am sooo angry at her for this. Even if I had things to work on in that R, I never deserved the treatment she has been giving me. I realized that I am pretty sure I don't want a relationship with her.

My GAling has been tough due to work demands, but I am hopeful that I will have more free time soon to continue to GAL. I have realized the things I need to work on that were mistakes from the relationship and I plan to not repeat those same mistakes in the next relationship I am in(if there is one).

If I sound bitter right now I am, but have every right to be. I know that it does me know good though so I am trying to change my thoughts about this.

Hopefully I'll do better tomorrow. The good news is that i have stopped blowing up at her and have stopped thinking and talking about her almost all together.