Figure out how to deal with those emotions internally and here, or in counseling if you have one... or get one if you do not... or even a DB coach if you can afford...
Try your very best not to confront your W with that info you now have... it will not serve you well, at all...
It isn't over until it's over... and if it's over, then it is... and only time will tell you, one way or the other... for you... take care of yourself...
