Wife no longer in love with me - Part 4

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I know, thank you guys.
I guess I am just confused......I don't know whether to go dark and if that's the right strategy, or to interact with my W, as that's what I feel my DB coach suggests.

She texted me to tonight with "thank you for your email. I was not trying to make you feel bad by telling you those things, I was just trying to help you understand. Have a good weekend"

TG, I don't think she will reconsider, I don't know why I tell her that. Maybe in a way I hope she will reconsider, but maybe it's just me trying to recognize my faults and apologize. In a way I feel like I am begging for forgiveness, and I know it will get me nowhere.

I guess I feel so desperate and sad because since she left my life has gone to sh!t. All of my friends either have kids or are having them, and I am honestly the odd one out and so alone.......All I wanted was a family with her and I never told her and now I have nothing....it just sux.

I think I just need to properly be dark and somehow detach, although it is so hard as I think about her every waking moment. If only u had shown this love and appreciation over the last few years, I wouldn't be here.