Back home - but for how long?

[NYCPeter]

For those of you that want to view my previous thread it's here Previous thread

Quick summary - 4-5 months ago W told me she didn't live love me and she wanted to seperate. She told me that she had felt that way for a long time and as well as long term problems (working too much, being angry all the time, not enough involvement with the girls), recent events such as finding out she had run up $36k worth of credit card debt, W going out after work (she finishes at 1:00am and not coming home till 4:00am had made things worse).

There is no evidence of OM though I am very suspicious of this. I of course have made every mistake under the sun over the last few months - despite the advice of my angels here, I have a habit of putting my foot in it. I have done a number of 180's and more GAL (though this is hard due to work and daughter with CP).

Was I the best father and husband in the world - hell no, but I am doing my darnest to be one now.

Last week on our anniversary - my W reiterated she doesn't love me anymore and that she wanted to seperate. From my perspective things had been getting better, so I am not sure why the sudden change.

I stupidly stormed out - stayed at a friend's place and am back this morning. I met my W midweek and told her I would be coming back.

I have a meeting with a lawyer this PM to go over my options and will be sleeping in the marital bed this evening. Should be an interesting day.