Thanks AJM. I really think I am angry. ANgry at myself for being sucked back in. Wanting to believe the best in someone who has hurt me the most. Angry at all that he has done to the kids. Angry at how he broke our vows. Angry that I can't really say much till its all over for fear of him getting more mad or "confused". He can do all he has done. In front of the world but God forbid I even bring it up. Because if I do- I risk not DBing the marriage or him getting more mad. Him getting more even. It is all so one sided. When if ever will he feel the pain he has inflicted on his family?!?! I know this is all about him today but I have to get it off my chest. He is the victim. He is so hurt. Poor thing. NOT! I feel like everyone caters to him. I know they are trying to figure out the problem but it seems he gets more "help" than us the aggrieved party!! How does that work??! Angry he thinks OW is worth throwing his family away for. WHIle at the same time he is not in a R with her. WOnder if she knows that?! Angry alcohol comes before everything-even his kids. But, he doesn't see it. Screw him. I am done. Now, how to get my heart to catch up with my mind. Thanks for listening. I feel a little better.
