Ctflor, Just dropping by to say I've read your thread and have heard just about all the same things said by my H - so please take some comfort from the idea that there is a pattern to all this.
I've done the same as you - burst out in anger and cried and looked needy - and felt that it set everything back to zero. But it didn't really. I've also thought I'd never be able to go on, or breathe or endure the pain, but so far I have, and sometimes it gets better.
You do seem to be doing things that are working - there is definitely a better feel about your interactions, don't you think? You're doing some good work on yourself - all of this questioning and thinking and trying new ideas. Keep it up, remember they say it's a marathon, not a sprint, and try to focus on the positives.
