DG, sorry you are having such a hard time right now. I *completely* understand. I wish I could tell you that the heartbreak completely goes away. It doesn't. The heartbreak feelings do lessen and occur less frequently, but unfortunately they do reoccur from time to time. Just hang in there sweetie, it *will* get better!
I'd acknowledge his bday, but I'd go into it with no expectations. It's just a nice gesture.
((DG))
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011