Went to bed early and cried myself to sleep last night. I don't know why things seem to be hitting me so hard lately. I wish this feeling of heartbreak would go away.
On monday it is H's 30th bday. I am not going to get him a card or anything, but I will say HB to him, or should I not even do that? He did wish me a HB on my day, I can't seem to do the right thing these days.
Yes, I am aware that I sound like I'm a victim, and that I am having a pity party for myself. Honestly, I really don't care. Like I said to God last night- I know there are millions of people who have things far worse than I do and I am blessed in many ways, but I am hurting beyond belief.
I would rather have pancreatitis every day than the feeling of heartbreak.
Things are really, really tough for me right now.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
