Thanks so much, Endeavour and Wretched, for your encouraging words. I do feel like I've come a long way, yet I still have a long road ahead of me. They weren't kidding about this being a marathon! I'm finally learning this is about endurance and pacing myself rather than about speed.
I really think in my case it took my marriage hitting rock bottom to make me realize I had to stop just reading and writing and thinking about DB'ing and I had to start doing the tough work. I like the lc4 I've become much better than the older version, and I'm excited about the additional positive changes that are to come in my life. I feel fortunate, too, that my H is still invested emotionally and wants to reconcile. So many great DB'ers don't get the chance I'm getting simply because their spouses are too far gone down Fantasy Lane. The good news is that despite if the marriage is saved or not, true DB'ers can have a better, fuller, happier life because of the skills they've picked up along the way.
I'm excited today, because I'm starting back to my Pilates classes. I've always been a Pilates junkie, but I had taken some time off (not knowing if my financial situation would allow for my sessions). I know that in the short time I've taken off, I've lost some muscle strength and tone, so it's going to take a little while to work myself back to where I was. I am really looking forward to the challenge!
I'm also cooking a family favorite meal tonight, so I'm looking forward to all the happy faces (including H's) sitting around our big, ol' kitchen table. We have family plans for tomorrow night, and then H leaves for a fly fishing trip on Saturday for 6 days. I'm really looking forward to this trip for him, as he is going with a mentor of his, who is a solid Christian, great family man, etc. H told me he is worried about being away (his cell and internet service will be pretty poor, therefore he won't be able to have constant contact with his office, etc. Of course, I think this is a GREAT thing!). I think he's also nervous about missing us back home, but it will be good for him to miss us...and for us to miss him. That will make his homecoming all the more sweet.
Again, many thanks for the encouragement and advice.
