The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Hi KML,

You are just so great! Really!!!! Thank you so much!! Nope....both kids are away at college as of late August so it is just us. D17 turns 18 in November. We are total empty nesters.

I'm going on my annual girls trip for 3 nights in early November. We are headed about 3-4 hrs away. This will be the first time the kids haven't lived at home so he will be free as a bird for the entire weekend. Not even looking forward to the trip this year even though we sure do have fun. Silly girl talk, cooking, wine, hiking, shopping, crying, etc...the only one I have confided in is my friend that was just recently divorced (she'll be on the trip). I haven't brought it up since but I wish I hadn't said anything because who knows who she has told?

Honestly KML, I have the resources and money to hire a PI, I am just terrified. I don't know if I'll be able to keep it together if I see for my own eyes. I'm really scared about that.
Feeling in a pretty fragile state. Hanging with my friends really does help though. They are all such strong women....I think about my one friend who is a cancer survivor and now runs marathons....and my other friends who run their own businesses...or are corporate executives...or environmentalists. We are all so like minded it is scary. I don't know what I would do without my friends!!!

I plan to accept the job offer if we can come to terms on salary. They offered a bit less than what I make as a consultant but I know that it is the right thing to do. I am still managing the office at our own business. One of the nights that I was up late and couldn't sleep H asked why....and I said I was just worried about work and the business....and the next day he said that he would start doing all of the office work and that he didn't want me to worry. I told him NO...I like doing it and will still do it. We dropped it at that point. I think it makes sense that I know what is going on financially so...for now....I'm still fulling involved.

KML...I just really really want to thank you. I may just do the PI thing and meet with the lawyer to do some information gathering.....I'm not sure when I will feel ready to just do it! Definitely thinking about it though. Just scared.