THE SHOW MUST GO ON

[TRUSTING]

Peace,

Thanks for posting. It is always good to hear from you. The hearing/deposition was Monday. Ex was very humble and I did not see any anger or rage like before. I did catch him in a little lie though and I called him on it. The frequency of his lying has decreased and I find this hopeful. Prior to MLC, my ex was the most sincere and honest person I knew. I do see signs of him returning to his old self.

I am in a different place though then I was a year ago. MLC or not, so so much damage has been done. I would never feel the same about our relationship or fully trust him again. Yes, I know you can rebuild things, I just think there would be always something in the back of my mind saying, "be careful". So any attempts to reconcile by him would be proceeded with an extreme amount of caution.

When I see ex now, such as at the deposition. It is all about him letting me know that he is a good guy. He volunteers his services, he is spending more time with the kids, he goes to church, etc.......... I just smile and listen. I am really not sure what he wants me to do....perhaps throw a party!!!!