Hard questions. What was different when things were "better"?
I can't really remember. When were things "better"? Last summer? Perhaps we'd ML within recent memory?
It's not so much what's happening as what's not. It's more my internal dissatisfactions (loooooong standing) than anything else.
About the basement....last time CJ put a real dent in that was perhaps right after bomb #2 when I said at minimum the basement would have to be cleared out before he sailed away into the sunset with OW.
I've mentioned that CJ is sensitive, right? Right after my last post as I was clearing up some recyclables (one of CJ's "jobs" which by the dates on the flyers hadn't been done since December) he said "I'll clean the house tomorrow".
(Which means the main floor, vacuuming, dusting etc.)
Which is great...but putting a dent in some of the "bigger picture" stuff would mean much more...see? Never satisfied.
The spectre of yet another "spring break" consisting of hanging around, watching TV, cleaning....
I DO realize what kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy I have going here, I really do! I just feel defeated by it at times.
I KNOW the thing to do is to MAKE this one different. And that's what I'll try to focus on this week.
