Ok so my last thread was locked...I hope those who posted on my last thread will find this one.
25...you are right I have always been focused on the negative. (one of the many things I have been working to change) My IC tells me that I am emotional stunted, due to childhood issues. I have been working very hard on letting go of the past focusing on the future. Easier said than done...I am afraid. I am really not young at all (39). As far as expecting things in return ...I guess I never saw it that way but do now. I was doing things in hopes of getting her attention. I have to do them to just do them. Not worry about if she sees them or cares that I did them. Just do it....I am also trying to think of something daily that I am thankful for. So, the first think I am thankful for is the time I have had with my family. Instead of being tossed out on the street (which most women would have done, and she had every right to do) she has allowed me to live in the home. Even in the same room at night.
I really do not try and make things all about me...in my head things sound great, then I put them on paper and it comes out horribly wrong. That is why I am terrified to write anything (or say much for that matter) in a aniver. card. I dont want to make things worse. I know to avoid the "I"; "ME"; "US"; "OUR"....but can anyone offer any suggestions. I dont want to pressure her in anyway but let her know how I feel and let her know that I do love her. Thanks to all who have helped.
