You all are an incredible gift to me. Thank you. I wish I could meet everyone in person to give back some of the love and caring I've received.
Had practice with the Travellers tonight...good for the soul and spirit. Fortunately we're booked nearly every weekend until mid-November so I will not have much down time to start thinking about things. We will be recording a new CD over the winter so at least my mind and fingers will be occupied.
I received a letter from my son (S21) today. He's doing very well in basic and it's already half over. He also told me that my W's sons' stepmother (wife of her XH #1) sent him a letter! I was floored. I called her and thanked her for her kindness and consideration; she told me that SS22 misses me and wants to see me, so we're going to work out something so I can visit him at their house. I remarked that my W would probably be furious and she replied, "Good. I hope she finds out and says something to me. I'll put her in her place."
Trying to get my mind off of everything that has happened, but it's not easy. It is hard to believe what my W has turned into. I feel like the last 11 years were a total waste and I was a blind fool to believe her lies. My mood flips from sadness to rejection to anger to relief. I find myself wondering if I can ever trust someone again to let them into my life. But then I try to remind myself that everything is God's plan, and He must have something cooking for me. Just wish He'd let me have a peek at the recipe...
Tomorrow we will try to finalize a time to meet with the mediator. I will remind her she has a lot of her things still here and I'd like to see them gone.
The beginning of the end, I suppose.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
