"So when I say I plan to keep fighting for the rest of my life, I don't mean for my marriage. I mean for me."
This is you, V. The real you. You have shown enormous growth and strength through your situation. You can steer yourself through mediation or any other situation now. Old V is gone.
I found these two quotes which I will share:
Courage is being afraid but going on anyhow. ~Dan Rather
Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared. ~Edward Vernon Rickenbacker
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS