Another crisis.....but H opening up now

[angel61]

I totally understand the "victim" mode. I have been, for the longest time, only been talking to my friends about my situation, and as you say, feeling that the only interesting thing about me are my "poor me" stories. Then I came to the realization that my poor friends are probably so tired of all my whining, so I now have stopped talking about it, except when asked.

I was just mulling this morning about the kind of person I have become. While its true that the sitch has brought about many good changes in me, especially when it comes to being patient, and compassionate, and slow to anger, it also has blunted the more passionate and exciting side of me.

I think I need to find my passion and rediscover my true self, with the needed changes. I am not finding myself attractive right now, so how will my H think of me?