Of course I do, but if there is an OM then I don't, I want to move on and put it past me and it is her loss. I know I sound selfish or illogical, as I am so desperate to be with my W again, but I just could never bring myself to trust her again or it would never leave my thoughts.....I don't deserve that. I've beat myself up a lot over this and I've done and changed everything in my life she asked for, yet she still never gave me a chance. Also, she has too much pride in herself to go back.
Sigh .....
That is definitely the easy way out.
But nobody said DB'ing was easy.
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.
