Even though he told me "its over" with ow, i find myself still obsessed with it all. I look at her facebook, read her blog, feel sick and sad....rinse repeat.
I cant trust him. Even though he says he is not going to contact her...i wonder if he has another secret email set up. Or, is he sitting with a different woman at lunch breaks now.
When he is late, when he is on the computer when i'm gone....my heart panics.
I'm struggling to detach from this. No matter how hard i try to put my focus on other things....i cant stop thinking about all these things...and if he is still lying.
You know....i dont want to put the program back on the computer so i can snoop.....because if i found something again it is going to take me down in a bad way. As it is im a mess with all these obsessive thoughts.
Im so angry at him this morning for doing all this.
