Oh I forgot to add: You have often asked yourself why you even want her back.
This is why: Number one, because you are addicted to her and codependent, and you feel that you need her to be happy. You haven't yet learned that you can still be happy or at least content without her.
Number two, because you haven't developed a high enough sense of self-worth or self-esteem to realize that you deserve better.
The only way you're going to conquer number one and two is GALing. The more that you take part in experiences that do not involve her where you find peace and empowerment, the less you will need her. But right now, you need her even if she is beating you up emotionally because you are lacking in the two things above. I only say all of that because it was EXACTLY what I went through and I think most people here did too.
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying
