PLEASE!!! Need help quick! Calling all vets!

[tadpole1025]

Thanks all. You are all very right. 25, you said:

by inserting yourself, and apologizing you actually shouldered some of the responsibility...

Absolutely. I never even thought of it this way. I see what you and others are saying though.

Now......the update:

A few days ago, Beatrice posted on my thread:

Many MLcers, and my xh did it in spades, do what I call 'Pass for normal' periodically. It is disorienting, because they seem a little like their old selves, and you suddenly think OMG perhaps it is me after all. The strain of being normal usually seems to provoke them to new heights of craziness shortly thereafter, so hold on to your seat on this one.

Beatrice, you couldn't have been more right. You actually predicted the future. Now, I feel like such a fool.

Early this morning, W leaves me a voicemail telling me that she would call me at 9:00 tonight because she wanted to talk about something. She called at 6:30. I guess from the MLC timezone?

She asked if I had filled out my pre-trial statement. I told her that I did and she got very upset. Accused me of not reminding her of the deadline. I told her that she was the one that wanted the divorce and it wasn't my responsibility to remind her of things. Sh!t hit the fan. She yells so loud.

Told me that:

I lie all the time.

She was dumb for ever loving me.

She was foolish and stupid for ever trusting me.

I'm a terrible human being.

It was all my fault for not renewing our vows.

She hasn't been happy since 2005. (But also said she has been unhappy for 15 years.)

Basically blamed me for EVERYTHING.

Said how can she give me a chance when I keep pulling sh!t. (Huh? She has already told me that there isn't a chance in Hell.)

She was unhappy when we bought our house in 2002. (We closed on her birthday.)

It was terrible. Beatrice you called it! Now, of course, stupid me is in the dumps again. I just don't know how much more of this I can take. It's been nearly a year since the bomb and she still hurts me so bad. I know I shouldn't let her, but she does.

I sometimes wonder why I even want her back.

I feel like such a fool.

Tad