Oh DG ((( ))) Yes it does take something bigger than a 2x4. It's gonna take something that only you can give yourself.
Sweetie.. I get it. My w stopped talking to me too. There are times when I hurt soo bad. I don't understand why this is happening. I don't understand how someone I spent 9 yrs with can just stop talking to me. Sometimes those feelings are soo strong that I just want to reach out. Sometimes it's to try to answer the "why" question, sometimes I just want to know that she still think about me. Something, anything, to avoid the truth of the situation. Because some days.. the truth seems to painful to bare.
At least that's what goes on in my head.
But you have to accept that this is what your h is deciding. It actually has very little to do with you. Nothing you have done excuses this action and nothing you can do will stop it either.
Try to get yourself in a mental state of mind to handle this. The other day when I wanted to text w so bad, I texted 4 other friends instead. When I can't believe she has chosen to say "You're not worth it".. I reread texts and fb postings from friends that say the opposite.
You said on my thread that you feel more loved now than ever. Focus on that now My friend said to me last month. You have 12 people on one side cheering you on, loving you unconditionally.. and you have one.. being a stinker. Why can't you focus on the 12 rather than the one??
She's was right. So hard to do, but is necessary... otherwise we can't move forward.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
