Wii: You need to pull yourself out of this. You are mourning something that is not worth this much grief. No sense in mourning longer than the friendship lasted.
And I know - don't say it - but I will anyway. You need to stop making it into more than it was. Stop defending who texted first or added one to Facebook. The intent was still pretty clear.
I said it yesterday and I'll say it again. Go back and read your entire thread. Try to look at it from the outside (like the rest of us) not from the inside.
It was not a bad thing that you made a connection/friendship but stop giving it so much power.
One more thing you won't like me to say but I don't think you should have messaged her that last time. It had ended. Finit. To get the last word goes too far and I doubt it was received well.
Not what you wanted to hear I'm sure but the truth from over here.
Hope your counselor doesn't sugarcoat it. When they tell you just what you want to hear - it really isn't that helpful.
Now pull up your socks and know that you are loveable and the right person will love you for who you are. MM was not that person.
