ALL the #%$ changes I worked SO hard at ... blown out of the water. You know, things were actually starting to get just a little better around here... and he was slowly slowly coming a bit closer.... and I had to slip back.
So mad at myself, sad, angry.
I have to turn it around somehow today. He probably does not believe that my changes are real or will stick.
Ct - we ALL have times when we do what we shouldn't! over and over again. This won't be your last time, so don't worry. You are human and sometimes...ahhhhhh! you just want to scream and cry and shake some sense into them.
Pick yourself up and smile and pretend it didn't happen. That's what I did. And remeber the changes are for you NOT for him. One day you will understand that. It just takes time.
You will be okay Ct.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
