I hate the delay in posts. I can't remember what I have posted.
Yesterday after I went shopping I stopped at the gas station. I actually flirted a little with a guy in there. That is so unusual for me, but it made me feel good!
I worked really hard on detaching yesterday. When I got back from shopping, I did laundry and started packing some things. I was fixing supper and H walked in carrying shopping bags. I smiled and said you did go shopping. I hope you had better luck than I did. He said when you left earlier I thought you were going to pick up our D. I told him that I had said she didn't want to go. When I said he was welcome to go, he didn't comment so I didn't think he wanted to. He said that he was trying to decide whether to go to work at that time. I told him that I didn't think he was here when I left. He told me that he was out on the sunroom. (Usually when he is on the sunroom the door is open, but it was closed until I came home yesterday.) He has to show me all the things he had bought. I complimented him on his purchases then left to pick up our D.
When I got back with D, we ate supper, then I finished the laundry and did the dishes. While I was putting away clothes he yelled for me. H and S were out on the sunroom. When I went out there I saw that he had bought a new exercise machine during his shopping trip. H told S to get off of it so I could try it out. I wanted to say so bad, why does it matter if I like it if I'm going to be leaving this week. I bit my tongue though and tried out the machine.
After that H and I went into the living room and actually watched football together. We use to do this every Sunday, but haven't since January. We jokes, laughed, and talked about the game. He asked how I liked the exercise machine and I told him that it kind of hurt my back. He then suggested what I could do so it is a little easier on my back.
After the game we went to bed. I told him good night and rolled over to go to sleep. He moved around a little bit until our feet were touching. (Again this is the way it use to be every night.) He started tickling my feet. After a few minutes of this, I rolled over and started tickling him. We got initmate. Afterwwards he interwined his feet with mine and we fell asleep holding hands.
I didn't get up with him this morning because I had taken some medicine for my back last night. I have had back issues for a couple of years now. When I did get up and he was already gone, I text him telling him I was sorry, I was afraid that would happen and promised him breakfast tomorrow. I haven't heard back from him, but I didn't expect to since he was still driving or already working.
Today I am going to help a friend that broke her ankle yesterday. When I get home later, I am still going to work on detaching. I need to pack some more stuff up and I think I will spend the evening reading more DR. I am prepared to have a backslide today. This has gotten to be the norm with him. I just need to remember to hold my head high and GAL.
