What I hear in your posts is a scared insecure guy. If you want your M to work with or without another person, then deal with that. What you can't deal with is the fact that she left you. Period. Accept it and change.
You're right mr bond, I am totally scared and insecure about this. Im scared stupid of my life without her, as I miss her so much. I'm scared I won't meet anyone again, not like her, not what we once had. I'm scared that I have lost the love of my life, scared that I will never see her again soon. I'm insecure about everything and completely hate life now. I guess I have just been thinking so much over the weekend, and then with people posting that she is most likely with another man, it has set me off with so many insecurities and fears.
M 35 W 31 Separated 2/2011 but still together Ended it 4/2011 Together 8 yrs Married 3.5 yrs Lawyers involved 6/2011