Nearly 5 years but who is counting?

[missmyfriend]

Forward, unless I start dating, she (my wife) will not be "happy". I will not date someone to make her happy nor will I do it to make someone else happy, i.e. friends, other family, or people on this board. I have been told by lady friends that I should date because I'm not getting any younger. LOL!

I'm also not worried if my W is seeing me as a man who respects himself or if she feels threatened because I have moved on. My focus is on what I need to do to be the best father and best husband and man according to what He wants. No one else's opinion should matter if I want to really be close to God. Too much of this world is really messed up because of what other people think. And the best therapist is God. He has a manual to tell us how to be as people.

I have had enough heart-to-heart talks with God (no, I don't hear him audibly but through the daily things that happen in my life, what I get out of scripture and knowing in my heart through the holy spirit what I should do) to realize that I need to follow Him and no one else, unless what other persons say is tested against scripture.

And if we go by what Michele says, it could be quite some time for my W to get through to the other side, if she is in an MLC. If not, I haven't lost anything because I end up with a more real relationship and hopefully a father that my children will be able to count on for guidance.

If my W ends up seeking Him and we still do not have a restored M, I will be happy knowing that she is better off than any other time in her life. I care about my W and my kids eternal life more than I worry about the here and now.